“Any Artist out there, who wanna be an artist and wanna stay a Star and don’t want the executive producer trying to be all in the video, all over the record, dancin’, come to Death Row.“ - Suge Knight (1995 Source Awards)
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First day of C25K. I’m gonna be doing the first week program for a while. My thoughts on it: it’s definitely doable. By the 3rd running cycle I started to find my breathing pace (which is VERY important IMO). It’s not something that’s too much to where you would dread doing it the next time. I actually enjoyed it a little.
Goal #1:
It takes 21 days to set/form a habit. So for the next 21 days (July 28, and hopefully every day thereafter), I’m going to drink 1950 ml (approximately 66 oz./ over 8- 8 oz. glasses) of water every day. My water bottle is 650 ml. Drinking that 3 times a day should get me the amount of water needed daily. I’m going to hate getting up in the middle of the night. ☼
Fear of Failure
I’m on a quest to change my life. I’m on a quest to make myself happy. Everything that I’ve wanted to do, hasn’t been done because of my weight. Last I checked (yesterday), I weighed 269lbs. My highest weight was somewhere between 307 - 311lbs. Wanting to lose weight isn’t doing me any good. I have to put forth the work. I printed out a quote some months back and taped it to my bedroom wall. ” The #1 cause of failure in this country is the fear of failure. Fear paralyzes you from taking action”. So, lights…camera…..
I’m not gonna say to myself; “Okay, this time, I’m gonna do it!” Instead, I’m going to say; “Okay, this time, I’m not giving up!”
I’m the type of person that has gotten frustrated with not seeing results after working out daily for weeks. After being frustrated, I’d just give up, convinced that I was meant to stay this size. But I’ve realized that I’m even MORE frustrated being this size than I am with not seeing the results I want when I want them. I have to remember that my body has to first get use to working out regularly before it kick-starts itself into fat burning mode. I’ll be checking in with myself on a regular basis, and keeping this blog (?) whatever this is, to keep myself in order and on track. I’m going to start setting small goals and trying to form healthy habits.
Fuck Forget Fear
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I’m grown now!! *cries on the inside*
Yeah, I know. I’m an adult and should have done this a LONG time ago, but I’m spoiled, blame my parents! So today, I got on insurance all by myself!! Yay me!! No for real….I’m serious. I’ve just been tagging along on my mom’s insurance for the longest, but I didn’t have a choice this time and had to get out from under her. Gotta get my own tag now too, and instead of paying the registration in June (which it had to be paid today) I pay it in October (my birth month!). Title is coming soon and it’s all mine. SHUT UP! I SAID I WAS SPOILED! But I’m not a brat I swear. I know what it’s like to struggle, sacrifice, go and do without, worry about the next meal, extend a few bills for several weeks and play catch up on the rest. Shit isn’t easy, nor is it fun. I’ve made little accomplishments today that are things I should be proud of, and I am! I like this feeling! Let’s do more!☼
*scampers off to download “He Lives In You” - The Lion King II: Simba’s Pride*
About me
Random - my thoughts. First thought: Ooh wouldn't it be cool if the Title :NatKJ actually stood for NatCage? yeah it would!! but it doesn't ;(
